I miss you :( ....
Saturday, October 15, 2011 /12:56 AM
Dear Toi,
I really miss you so much.
I even cried so much that my eyes were swollen today.
It hurts so much to know that you're somewhere so far away.
I won't be seeing you for the next two weeks and it's already so hard now :\ .
The absence of you leaves a big hole in my heart.
"Promise me not to cry okay? It breaks my heart."
I'm trying my best here not to cry ... But I really miss you so much :( .
I hope that time passes fast in this next two weeks, or else it'll be so hard to handle or to hold back the tears that keeps rolling down.
I love you Toi, forever and always <3
♥ I guess I love you too much
Friday, September 9, 2011 /9:22 PM
Love, isn't it suppose to be a beautiful feeling? Isn't it suppose to make you feel happy? I just wish life was much more better or at least, better between you and I. If only you can understand me or just love me as how much I love you. I've done hell a lot of things that I think it will be pretty unbelievable to a lot of people and yet, I still did it. Just for you. Do you understand? Will you ever? I still continue loving you with all my heart and soul just hoping that some day, or one day, you'll give me the love that I never had but I know it's impossible. I'm being realistic not sarcastic. I'll still be here, no matter what the circumstances is, still here loving you to the depth of my life. I had given you everything that I ever possessed, that no other people would ever give you. Who in their right minds will give you their life? Their heart? Their everything? Because you mean a lot to me, you're my everything. I just wish you would understand and we would just be happy. I'd die for you, did you know that? I suppose not, you're oblivious to anything and everything that I do just for you. When will you realize?!
I guess, I love you too much. Too fucking much.
Maybe ....
Friday, August 5, 2011 /8:36 PM
I'm so sorry for what I've done . It's not that I don't believe you, it's .... You just make it physically impossible for me to believe whatever you say . But I'm really sorry, I seriously am . Please don't be too affected with what I do because I swear, it'll hurt you so much . I can't handle it no more, that's why I have to do what I'm doing now . I have no other choice . If I have other options, do you think I want to suffer like this ? I don't want to see you suffer too, it hurts me badly . Please don't be stupid . It's not cute :\ .
Maybe it's because I love you too much .... :'(
♥ If you were here today
Friday, July 29, 2011 /11:18 PM
Is it me who can't understand you? Or is it you who lies? I wish someone could tell me the truth. What happened to "I promise you, forever and always." Was it just to make me happy? I thought it was a reassurance that you'd be with me, forever and always. And when I cried for all those times you made me sad because there was no reason why I should keep it no more. And if I tell you that I love you, would you believe me? And if you were really here today, the you that I've always known, would it be the same? Would I wait a lonely lifetime for you to come back? I will. And if I said I really miss the old you, would you believe me? Because you'd always be close with me for you are in my heart. And this, I can promise you, forever and always. Would you understand me? Screw all those promises because it had no meaning in it. Screw all those happy moments because it was meant to last for a second. Screw all those sweet talks, because it was coated with a lie. I finally realize that I can't get you off my mind because day by day, all I think of is you might forget me. I wish I know your feelings and what you see when you close your eyes because I can't live in this lie anymore. And if you were here today....
i'm alive
Sunday, June 12, 2011 /2:21 AM
He called me today :) . I'm like fcuking happy. Unexpected but really damn happy. Gonna talk to him tonight again :D Loveeeeeeeeeeeee youuuuuuuuu narakkkkkkkkkk <33
Yay! :D
Friday, June 10, 2011 /5:46 AM
OMG. My BFF wrote to me! I'm so happy, really! And he says he misses me! Awwwww, I miss you too teerak narak mak :D . I hope you'll come back real soon! 4 more days to go :) .
*chan ruk kun, por! joopjoop x100000000 :P Kun narak mak <33
Counting the days
Thursday, June 9, 2011 /7:39 AM
5 more days to go 'til I see you again but damn, school starts next week but they'll be so busy with production since production night will be on the 18th of June. I'm not participating this year so I'll have lots of free time. Gonna spend those times at my home sweet home and I'll be able to visit you and of course, skype with you. Can't wait!!! My BFF is coming back home.
I love you. I miss you. Come home quick.
Naaaaaraaaaaakkkkk, joop :-*
